I Wont't Give Up

early in the morning, still the same ~ i get scold again ~
without any reason ~ whole day's mood destroy ~

tuned of the day ~ I won't give up ~ jason mraz ~
think of you again ~ my feeling just same as the lyircs ~


I Won't Give Up <3

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well there's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

* i wont give up of my feeling to you ~ 

i wont give up for trying find you back ~ 

Funny

Why my parent so FUNNY ?!

They always said I din exercise !!
Then now I said I go jogging wit fren tomorrow morning ~
what the say ?
They said " why you got so many pattern ? "

What the fuck are you guys now ?!
Is that you guys want to close me at shop and home everyday ?
For sure one day I will be crazy I tell you !!

God is you, devil also you !!
If u don let me go !!
NEXT time don tell all the relative that I din go EXERCISE !!!

FUCK man !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stress ~ flashback ~ hurt ~ miss ~ feelings ~ tears ~ love ~!

今天的我并没有跟往常一样~
还是想着他一整天~没有心情一整天~

昨晚表姐打了电话给我~ 话题还是一样~
不一样的，她终于知道了那个秘密~为什么~ 我还是放不下~
为什么~我会那么伤~
为什么~两个月了~我还是每天想起就会哭~

每天想起你的我~
只活在过去~放不下~
你~可否想念过我？
可否~想念会以前说有的事情~

一段段的爱情~
让我深深的伤过~
到最后~被丢下的~被遗弃的~还是我~

但~每一段感情都让我成长了很多~
但~我和他之间的感情~
我~真的~真的真的~不想那么轻易地放弃~
很傻吧？

或许，在我的人生~
再也不会去喜欢其他人~
因为~我过不了自己的那一关~

今天的我，一早起来就没有心情~
看到我的人都知道~
一旦压力到~差一点抽烟了~
吓倒吧?没想到我也有这样的念头吧~
但，到最后，我还是不敢碰~

我，再也不是你们以前认识的那个佩欣了。
现在的我，什么都会想。
可能你们会觉得我学坏了吧。

佩欣的感性世界：
我，不容易爱上一个人。
不随便喜欢上一个人。
如果一开始就没有感觉，就从不会给一丝希望。

如果一旦在一起了。
刚开始的我，就会对你忽冷忽热。
更着时间，慢慢的，我就会越来越关心你。
尽我所能爱护你。
这个时候的我，就是慢慢的，越采越深了。
我会不顾一些的对你好，甚至就连自己也不顾了。
重心就在你身上，那把自己也受伤害。

不爱就不爱，但一旦爱了，就很难回头了。
容易在感情上陷得深，容易受伤，容易为爱情而流泪。

就算自己有什么不满，但又怕对方会不喜欢，往往就会忍着不当一回事。
但因对方的不满，就会尽努力的改变。

这就是我对每段感情的执着，努力。
很笨吧？
但，为什么就是没有一个人会懂得珍惜呢？
一次，一次的伤害，一次一次地哭到吐心狗肺那样。
又有谁知道？又有谁会心疼？又有谁会真心的在乎过？

今天突然叫了几位朋友去游泳，送歇下心情。
还算不错。

有你们真好。=)

Good night >^

Second day of February ~

Early in the morning get scold by my mum again ~
she said " next time you better don have a family ! "
What the hell that early in the morning heard such bad thing from my own mother ?

Today i think of him, but i din emo ~
suddenly saw all the pic which captured with him in my ipad ~
i din emo and even i smiled ~
the sweet memory between me and him ~ we was so closed to each other ~ <3

when i back home, i packed my thing ~
i saw the birthday card that he wrote to me ~
this was what that make me emo again ~

yesterday night i had cried hardly again ~
one of my friend come and chat wit me ~
thx very much ~ gan ~

today is the 2 months anniversary that we broke up ~
yet, im still miss him very much ~ hoping him will come back to me ~ think back everything everyday ~
this kind of day, don knw still have how long i need to go through ~ =)

You're STRONG !! Rachel Bong !! =)

My mind

What is in my mind during this few days ?
Yes, again is ONLY him ~

Most of my friend around me, they keep on break and get back together with their partner many time but at last they still stick together ~

I had think many things~ at last I cried~

Is it ?
If in the future, although we get back together, the feeling wasn't the same as last time ?
We will feel akward together each other and less topic to talk to each oth anymore..
I don wan be like that..
I still wan the previous of the one who can be with me happily, sweetly ..


To : You <3

Thank you for once truly love me before ~
Thank you that let me lfall in love to you ~
Thank you for all what you had did to me ~ all the suprise
Thank you for let me know all your lovely friend and family members ~
Thank you that you let me grown up after this ~
Thank you that discuss with me about the future and introduce such a good product melaleuca ~
Thanks very much ~

I know that in this relationship I'm nt be enough mature ~
I had no giving you enough acceptance and trust and support ~
I always try to change you that normally boy wouldn't like to be change ~
I make this relationship out of energy anymore ~
And many more ~
All of this, sry for it ~

Don knwow when we still can talk to each other and meet each other le ?
Hope there will still have chance ba ~

Alys love you and support you ~







This few days I also truly think of my future ~
Maybe I will go to UK to continue my degree on next year ~ ( I think it also a good way for me to forget him ba )
Making this decision not only because him but also for my better future career ~
I know if I do really go to oversea, all my life will change, all my story will change ~
But it is good, right ?
Everything whether oN or not ? Just need my parent prove ~

If I go oversea study, will me and him have the faith in the future ?
I don knw, just let god decide for me ~ just let him continue write my life story for me ~
No matter how, he always in my heart ~ ATYF <3

What is LOVE ?

My my lovely cousin ~ BECKY <3 

一张照片如果裂了，

就算用最强的万能胶把它粘好，

中间还是会有一条明显的裂痕。

一段感情，

如果结束了。

就算再复合了，

或许它会比之前更好，

也可能它就像一张裂照片一样，

在彼此心中有着深深的裂痕。

“爱”，它就像一瓶毒药。

总会让人上瘾，戒不了。

偏偏又是良药。

它总会让人的伤口愈合。

良药又苦口，

在甜蜜爱情背后，

总是背负着无形的压力和反击。

到底“爱”是好是坏？

永远没有人给一个百分之百的答案。

我想科学家也无法鉴定这问题吧？

“爱”没有界限。

在爱情游戏理论，

没有绝对的游戏规则，

只有当下的感觉。

而感觉就是你唯一的赌注。

曾经有人说过：“爱”就是迷宫。

它会让人进了去，出不来。

迷宫可以有不同的出路，

每一个出路有不同的结果。

或许我找的出路不是正确的。

但我会试着接受。

直到它正确为止。

“爱”和时间有着分不开的关系。

怎么说呢？

时间会改变一切。

时间可以让一对好朋友变情侣。

也可以让情侣变成普通朋友。

有些可以用一秒钟来爱上一个人。

在那黄金一秒钟里，

感觉来了，

那就是一见钟情。

也有人可以用一分钟来结束他们的爱情。

不用华丽的解释，

就可以结束一切，

多么潇洒，干净利落。

“爱”对我来说，

不是个必需品，

但它是一个价值高的非卖品。

它有着别人没有的珍贵。

不是每个人都可以拥有它。

我可以不需要它，

但如果哪天我接受了，

我会尽我的能力来保护它。

直到我生命结束的那一刻。

这也是我对“爱”的承诺。

M.E.M.O.R.Y

Today vied back all our picture ..

Think back from we just knew each other, until we fall to each other, we spent our time and love to each other , what we had been through together ..

All the sadness, happiness, sour , bitter memory ..
This 7 months really nt easy for me ..
Our relationship started from a smile, love grow from a kiss and now end with my infinity of tears and feeling ..

It's really hard for me to let you go..

Gives both of us 1 - 2 years time to focus on our own thing no matter in career or study ..
Let ourselves be more stable and mature ..

I do believe at last we will still be together ..
Forever and ever ..
Then our story can be continue ..

Our story, our journey ..
Wasn't end yet ... <3

Patience is the success and key word for our relationship ..
Right ?

I Love You ~ Alex Tiew Yong Fu <3