Suffer

Now just only morning 8.10am.
Suddenly awake just because my brain already automatic start function, automatically my brain start think of him again.

yesterday night, I had cried once, because I saw his pic on Facebook and think of him again.
Why I can become so weak ? Already break around one month but he still stays in my heart, I still think of him everyday.

Feel wanna find him back, but impossible he will accept me, right ?
If I find him again, only will make him feel that I'm annoying, right ?

I hate myself, why I can't become strong ?
Why can't become more patient ?

God * please gives me power to stay myself strong enough ~ I wish he will find me back in one day ~ Bless ~

3 weeks

 After 3 weeks ~ still suffering everyday ~ 

what different is, suddenly got 2 boys keep on find me ~ sigh 

1 always message me, another one keep call me in the middle of the night ~ 

why so weird ? 

Nowadays, I know that he already start avoid me ~ 

His fb status had already blocked me, so that i couldn't know anything about him ~ 

Message him also didn't reply ~ this shows what ? 

Actually what do i really mean to him ? i wanted to know ~ 

until now, i'm still always tell myself that he will come back one day ~ 

Am I stupid ? but this is the way i am ~ 

all the memory flash back everyday ~ where i go always think of him ~ 

what's wrong with me ? 

I'm still hoping he will find me back, he wouldn't that cruel to me ~ 

I hope, I wish ~ truly ~ from the bottom of my heart ~ sincerely ~ 

i will wait him ~ until he is back ~ or until he belong to other girl ~ 

God Bless ~ 

Single Life

Within this 7 months, many things happened around me. Started a relationship with him, this 7 months do have a lot of memory between us. But don know what happen within this month, everything suddenly changed. He said break up to me and this is what i din ever think will happen in me.

This few weeks everyday cant sleep, cant eat, cant do anything ~
my mind just keep on think think think of him, wake up i think, while i sleep i think, when i eat i think ~
Why everything can just erase like that ? why just can left me like that ?
Why these day so torturing me ? why cant i just forget everything like him ?
This is all the question in me now ~

Santa Klaus ~ can help me wash away all my memory ~ i feel very san fu a ~ T.T
wanted to cry out loud also cant ~ HELP !!!!