Bad day

Sorry to say that today was as usual, think of him the whole day again ..
Am I annoying ? Yes, I think so ...

Today helping at my dad shop, I had not talk to anyone ..
Just be quite alone ..
Read the book, just make me think of him more ... While reading, I will think back why last time he will so cool to me suddenly, why I will keep complaining that he don love or care of me ...
Actually I'm wrong .. He will ignore me, cool to me just because that time he is in the cave, solving of his problem, but I still keep on disturbing him, even asked him about those question I shouldn't ask.. No space for each other, that why we will break up ..

But nw, hw I understand, I can't find him back anymore ..
He is not longer belong to me ..

When men have stress or problem, they will hide themselves in the cave and solve their problem until. Once they have solved it, only they will come out from the cave and focus back the relationship .. They will use 95% focus on their own problem, and 5% think of others. That why sometimes u will see they are playing games or watching tv and ignore u .. Actually he didn't mean that .. Nw I only understand ..

Although everyone who around me told me hw bad he is, but I still will find reason or excuse for him ... I will just keep on giv hope to myself .. Even me, myself also don wan to help and face it myself, who can still help me ?

When women have stress, they will just tell everything to their close friend and discuss together. This is what the different between men and women ...

Mature relationship
They will understand and fully trust each other ..
They won't blame each other when there are problem happen ..
They will motivate each other, understand and accept each other ..
They will give each other space and time ..

Childish relationship
They will not unerstand each other and keep on blaming each other with any problem ..
They won't motivate each other ..
Girl will always think that boy not care enough of them ..
Guys will always think that girls didn't give them space ..
Slowly they will ignore...

If we still gt chance, I will become more mature in our relationship ..
That won't jus keep on blaming but understanding him more ..
Give motivation, acceptance and understanding ...
Our story, our faith, wasn't end ..

The book really help me a lot ...
Change me from a childish girl, to a more mature thinking lady ...